I wasn't that much a Senna's fan... in fact I found him just a playboy with a big ego that eventually done good deeds... so, he was ok to me, but I was not a fan and the day he died I was much more troubled about Ratzenberger, that was completely forgotten.
But the day I got devastated was 05/05/1994, when his funeral procession crossed São Paulo city (where I lived most of my life) from north to south. Some colleagues and I (all around 15 old) skipped class to see the procession pass under the Vila Guilherme Bridge (at the first leg of the procession).
My little party wasn't all sunshine and rainbows, but we ain't sad, just curious. But the closer we got to the crowd over the bridge (there are far more people than accounted by the press, that must have counted just people on the service) the more the things gone dark. There was even some beggars, that probably never saw Senna, crying. I never saw anything that sad in my live. Was like a big and rough horror movie like miasma choking everyone there. We found a spot right over the place were the procession would pass (we arrived much earlier) and waited. When people near me saw the fireman truck some kilometres on the horizon it was like being beaten on the stomach harder than 30 years of Kyokushin could ever delivered me. And as long as the truck got closer I almost panicked be the sadness of the people... they were all broken. São Paulo city was not new about tragedies... we got civil wars, massacres, dystopian like crime, pandemics, mass murderers, suicide cults and every thing on the package... never in my life I saw São Paulo silenced by sadness, specially on a working Thursday. I didn't wanted to be there, but couldn't move away.
To me, the man or the driver are lesser things... I don't admire too much the driver and don't care for the man... but the myth he became is another story. I still fill my spine going beyond 0ºC every time I see images from that day... fell the cramps when the people from Honda unleashed his ghost over Suzuka. To me, this is Imola 94:
Now, picture around 50km of it all.